As we are halfway through week five of this quarantine, social distancing, stay at home order I feel the cabin fever setting in and I’m willing to bet that you do too.
Maybe you’ve used this time to do nothing and now you’re desperate for something, anything to do. Maybe you’ve been using the past few weeks to crush goals and finally make a dent in that ever-increasing to-do list that never seems to get done. Or maybe you’ve been struggling – cut off from friends, events, church, or just the daily comings and goings you so looked forward to.
Maybe you’re asking and praying for things to return to normal.
But what was normal life? Being so busy that it’s only within the last few weeks you’ve actually picked up your bible, having to blow the dust off the cover before it can be read? Being stuck in a job that you can only complain about and pray for Friday to come swiftly and deliver you from your torture? Wishing so desperately for a vacation or a break that never seems to come? Or maybe your were happy, contented with your comings and goings, a good busy, but at the same time maybe there was someone you were missing – someone who wanted your attention but you were too distracted to see.
What was normal life? The busyness of life creating such detrimental distractions. The anxiety about the economy and money worries leaving us feeling trapped in jobs we never really loved or wanted but couldn’t leave? The insecurities about family and friends and co-workers that paralyzed us? Frustrations over gas prices and money woes and worries? Coming to Devoted and other church events but not really being present? Leaving maybe emptier that you came in? Having all these great ideas but no courage or to speak them aloud or try and see if they may work?
Hindsight can be a wonderful thing, but also a tremendous hindrance. When we look at what was through the lens of what we know now we often do so with rose-colored glasses. We mustn’t be like the Israelites wandering in the desert after they’d been delivered now moaning and groaning about going back, how Egypt was better than this. (Numbers 11:4-15).
At the same time the future is impossible to see and we fill in that misty unseen path ahead with stories and what-ifs and monsters and hopes and fears and aspirations. But this kind of thinking leads only to anxiety and fear. Psalm 119:105 says, “your word is a lamp for my feet and a light on my path,” meaning the light of the Word casts just enough light to see the next steps ahead. We look not to the misty unseen future or back to a past forgiven and forgotten (Luke 9:62; Isaiah 43:18-19; Philippians 3:13-14), but looking at what it in front of us now and we ask:
What new thing is God doing? What is God using this time, right here, today, to speak to my heart? What is God revealing about myself, my world, and how I interact with it in this time?
We must look at this time in our history as God creating in us a new normal. Before, the earth was groaning against us. Now we have a chance to rest, to read, to pray, to make those changes, to invite God in and ask: God, what in me is causing your pain? Where must I be changed by your loving hands to be made more like Jesus? What is my gifting? Where are you leading me? What is my purpose, my calling, my true hearts desire?
To invite God in and to say speak to my heart in this time. Rejuvenate me with a new and fresh filling of the Holy Spirit. Open my eyes to my purpose, my true identity. Let the Potter sculpt your little-lump-of-clay-self into something beautiful. Let this be a time of refining. (Remember the old hymn about the refiner’s fire?).
Ask God what new thing he is doing and what he’s calling you – yes you – to change as we move into these new seasons of life.
What is God saying to you today? Are you listening?